Monthly Archives: April 2013

Xerek Files: Entry Number Eighteen – [Puberty]

With those who possess extraordinary traits and abilities, there are a wide variety of different traits and abilities available that can be manifested in any given individual.  In addition to this, there is a level of variability present on when the individual in question will manifest their specific traits and abilities.  This is due in part to the nature of the extraordinary trait or ability in question.  Some of them are present at birth while others form and manifest themselves later in life as the individual in question grows and develops.  With this latter group, the extraordinary traits and abilities in question tend to develop around the time of puberty.  This is because puberty is a time when the individual’s body goes through both physical and psychological changes.  However, due to the fact that these individuals possess extraordinary traits and abilities, when these extraordinary traits and abilities do manifest themselves, they have the possibility of challenging the social order as well as possibly threatening it.  There is also the possibility that they can threaten any individual that just so happens to be around the individual when the extraordinary trait or ability first manifests itself.

With these extraordinary traits and abilities, when they manifest themselves, they can be compared to that of sex characteristics.  This is because they require certain physiological changes to occur before they are able to fully manifest themselves or to manifest themselves properly.  But if they manifest themselves before this physiological change occurs in the individual, it can cause great harm to the individual in question which can include death of the individual.  However, some extraordinary traits and abilities can already exist within the individual but aren’t fully able to manifest themselves until puberty occurs.  This can be due to the increased level of hormones found in the individual’s system when puberty occurs.  But this isn’t always the case.  Some traits or abilities are just present at birth because they develop and manifest themselves while the individual is still in the womb.

It’s all about how certain genes manifest themselves during an individual’s development and which genes require to be “turned on” as the individual goes through life and matures as an individual.  But besides these chemical and hormonal triggers that occur during puberty, there is also the possibility that extraordinary traits and abilities can be triggered by other chemical changes that occur during an individual’s life.  Such examples can occur during times of stress or in fight or flight situations.  External, environmental factors cause a chemical change to occur with that particular individual that allows the extraordinary traits and abilities that they possess to manifest themselves.  There’s also the possibility that pregnancy can cause extraordinary traits and abilities to manifest themselves in the individual, or affect how they operate.  And if the fetus possesses extraordinary traits and abilities, there is the possibility that its mother’s biochemistry can affect the extraordinary traits and abilities that it possesses or how they manifest and develop.  However, further study is needed before a definite conclusion can be reached on this particular matter.

But regardless of the exact details, the individuals biochemical makeup and how it changes during their life, particularly during their early life, can affect how the extraordinary traits and abilities they possess will manifest themselves and develop over time.  It’s all dependent upon that particular individuals biochemical makeup accompanied by the extraordinary traits and abilities that they possess.  Like our personalities, this matter is a very personal and highly tailored situation that is dependent upon the person in question.  But despite this fact, there are still larger, broader categories and circumstances that can still be used to describe what these individuals are going through.  This fact acts as the groundwork that helps to determine exactly what is going on.

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Posted by on April 29, 2013 in Xerek Files


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The Pain of Depression

Human beings are an emotional species. Love, hate, anger, sadness; these are just some of the emotions that we are capable of experiencing. One such emotion, and what this entry is going to be about, is depression. Depression is an emotional state of extreme sadness that typically saps the light, happiness, and joy a person can experience in their lives. It can become so bad that the individual can actually feel pain because of it. This pain is not a physical one, but an emotional one. But because of how the brain is wired, it doesn’t distinguish between the two. Pain is pain and the brain doesn’t care about what form it takes. And like physical pain, emotional pain can become so bad that the only relief that a person can see to relieve it is through death, typically done through suicide. But even though they see death as the only way of obtaining any kind of relief, they don’t want to die. All that they want is for the pain to stop, that’s all.

With depression, it blinds the sufferer to the world around them, preventing them from seeing the good things that they have in their life. In addition to this, it prevents them from obtaining any kind of enjoyment out of life that just might exist for them. They also feel like they can’t be helped out of the pit that they find themselves in. The only way that they can escape the pain, as stated earlier, is to enter the waiting arms of death. Depression causes this to be the only answer that they see as being readily available for them to use, and thus, the only way out of the situation that they find themselves in. Depression is an all consuming beast that just doesn’t care about the sufferer or those who are in that person’s life.

As a result of this, I see depression as an emotional cancer. With cancer, it is essentially the person’s body turn cannibalistic. The cells of the person’s body divide and spread uncontrollably, impairing function and preventing the body from operating properly. Depression is no different. But in the case of depression, instead of the person’s cells consuming the individual alive, it is their emotional state that is eating them from the inside out. And it is beyond the person’s control. They can’t help it.

With cancer, people can and do die because of it. Some people fight it while others accept it. With those who accept it, it can occur when they first learn of the diagnosis while others accept it after fighting it for as long as they can. However, there are some who fight it all the way. But they are not held morally responsible for what happens to them. However, we do hold those who commit suicide morally responsible for what they do. This may be because suicide victims actively take their own life whereas cancer victims are typically subject to something that is beyond their control. But it’s important to note that depression is a medical condition that is beyond the person’s ability to control. This can be due to factors in the person’s environment, social life, or is a part of a chemical imbalance within their system. The person can be socially isolated from others, experience pressures that they can’t handle, are socially awkward, have some kind of identity crisis, or was physically or sexually assaulted for whatever reason. It can even be a combination of these factors that play into the person’s condition.

But regardless of the reason, it rests beyond the person’s control. They shouldn’t be blamed for their condition or the fallout that results from it. And some of them do seek help and are able to be treated for their depression while others seek help but still follow through on taking their own life. The factors that are in play into this can be quite numerous and be quite complicated. Depression is also a highly individualistic emotional state for it is literally tailored to fit that particular person. As a result, their medical treatment, like any type of medical treatment, needs to be tailored to that particular person. Basic tools and stepping stones act as the groundwork for this treatment, but from there, need to be customized and fit that person’s needs. Emotional injuries and traumas should be treated like any physical injury or trauma. The only difference between emotional and physical traumas is that emotional traumas aren’t visible and readily identifiable whereas physical traumas are. But a part of our physical being is the emotional element that resides in all of us.

And like any physical injury, if a person’s emotional conditions go untreated, it can lead to infection and the wounds will fester. The body has the potential of fighting these things off, but it can take a lot out of the person and can leave a nasty scar behind. However, there are limits to what the body can do and it can’t always fight off every threat it faces, resulting in the death of the individual. With emotional injuries, it can lead to the inevitable result of suicide. People suffering from depression don’t want to experience the pain that accompanies depression. Yes, it’s normal to experience sadness, even great sadness, but it becomes unhealthy and dangerous if it goes on for too long, especially if it goes untreated. But depression can’t be helped. Thus, those who suffer from depression shouldn’t be ostracized because of it and those who commit suicide shouldn’t be condemned. It’s not their fault.

With suicide, there are more people affected then just the person who commits this act. There are friends and family who are left behind who have to deal with the emotional fallout of the situation. They are left wondering what they could have done in order to save the person as well as ask themselves why they didn’t see the signs that the person was going to commit suicide. They can also be left angry and embittered by the situation for they don’t have a way of dealing or resolving it. They are just stuck in the situation with no way of getting out of the predicament they find themselves in. They also need someone or something to blame, and since the person who committed suicide is the only person that is readily available for them to latch on to and lash out at, the victim of suicide becomes the target of this anger and blame. As a result of this, it has become a social taboo in the Western World to commit suicide. This taboo has become so ingrained within Western culture that it has found its way into the holy books of the three Abrahamic religions, thus creating a religious taboo against this act as well.

A result of this is that a lot of ideas and attitudes surrounding suicide have formed. One such idea describes suicide as a permanent solution to a temporary problem. But for those who suffer from depression, have considered suicide, or have attempted or have successfully committed it don’t feel that their condition is temporary. For them, it is quite permanent. As a result, it can require them to receive a lifetimes worth of treatment without it even being fully cured. And those who suffer from depression can engage in acts of self-harm, something that can take on a number of different forms. These can include engaging in physical harm and injury with suicide being on one extreme of the spectrum, becoming socially isolated or withdrawn from others, beating themselves up emotionally, wondering what they could have done in situations where they were hurt in one form or another, fixating on events or situations that are beyond their control, or turning to comfort activities like eating to help fill the void they are feeling.

In addition to this depression, these individuals can feel like their emotional state is their burden to bear and theirs alone. This can be due to the fact that they see it as being unfair to burden others with their pain. As a result, it can cause them to feel that they are all alone, which in turn only exacerbates the situation. They can even appear to be alright on the outside without a care or worry in the world. This can be due to the fact that they just want to turn and hide, not wanting others to feel bad for them or to cause others to suffer because of them. But this doesn’t erase the fact that they can be hurting inside and just burying the pain that they are feeling.

In the end, those suffering from depression or have considered, attempted, or succeeded at committing suicide shouldn’t be the subject of moral judgment. They are victims of something that they can’t help or otherwise control and are suffering because of it. What these people need is help, not ridicule. Like any living thing, they have a sense of self-preservation that causes them to want to live. However, the pain that they are experiencing can override this sense of self-preservation, causing them to seek an end to the pain that they have to endure, something that is typically done through the means of suicide. Suicide, like gangrene, is nothing more than a symptom of something much greater and deeper then what is readily seen and needs to be treated like any physical medical condition. If not, a lot of needless suffering will occur because of it and a lot of people will needlessly die as a result of this.


Posted by on April 28, 2013 in Uncategorized


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Xerek Files: Entry Number Seventeen – [Sins of the Father]

As a result of human evolution and development, we tend to be creatures that tend to have some form of moral compass, creating a sense of what is right and wrong.  As a result, when a transgression occurs, we want to see justice being served and the offending party punished.  The more civilized an individual tends to be, the more likely that they are willing to allow the course of justice to go its course.  And the more just the justice system is, the more likely the people are going to give it credit and let it run its course.  But even then, not everyone who violates the justice system gets punished.  In addition to this, with our evolution, a formalized justice system didn’t exist for most of that time, resulting in our ancestors seeking their own justice when they were wronged.  This had an effect upon our psyche of wanting instant gratification through the use of immediate justice.  “We want justice and we want it now.”  This gives us the mental satisfaction that we know that the wrong was righted.  As a result of this, in our modern society, it leads to fights in bars over trivial matters and the cause of urban violence where gang members seek retribution against their enemies and others who have wronged them.  And in situations where people engage in acts of immediate justice, it can cause some to overreact and take more than what was justified.  And when the party that was wronged gets its immediate justice, it can cause the other side to want retribution as well for their wrong.  This can be the cause of situations of blood feuds between individuals and close knit groups.

But not all situations allow for immediate retribution.  There are situations where the offending party is never caught or brought to justice.  As a result, it causes people to brew over the situation and become angry because of it.  They want justice but it has been denied to them.  As a result, they want to see the individual or individuals punished through other means, regardless of the cause.  This has led to the idea found in the Old Testament of “Sins of the Father” where the sins and wrongs of one individual are punished for three to four generations down the road.  The mentality is that someone, anyone, should be punished for the crimes that have been committed, even if that person wasn’t responsible for the crime or otherwise connected to it other than being related to the offending individual; future generations being punished for the actions of the previous ones.

With those who prescribe to this mentality, it causes them to perceive extraordinary traits and abilities as being the result of the sins of the previous generation.  These individuals see extraordinary traits and abilities, not as genetic characteristics, but as punishment of a supernatural force such as a deity or karma.  They see nothing natural about extraordinary traits and abilities, a perspective that tends to be religious in nature.  They tend to turn to holy text as a means of determining this.  With the religions of the Western World, such individuals claim that when God created humanity, he did so without extraordinary traits and abilities.  They claim that Adam and Eve represent humanity in its purist form and any deviation from this is unnatural and corrupting, brought about because of previous sins.

But extraordinary traits and abilities have no connection to the sins of the previous generation or through divine justice against a wrong that was committed by someone in the past.  They are purely genetic in nature, a fact that is due to the forces of evolution.  Evolution is always marching forward and it never stops.  Just because we think that it has reached a stalling point doesn’t mean that it has.  And it never regresses.  Evolution is an adaptive force, not a developmental force with a particular end in mind.  All that evolution cares about is allowing a particular species to not only survive in a given environment, but to thrive.  It does this by weeding out those who aren’t suited to the given environment and allowing those with the more favorable traits to have more progeny.

Some of these extraordinary traits and abilities, due to their fundamental nature, will eventually be removed from the gene pool, but as a whole, extraordinary traits and abilities provide some form of survival advantage to those who possess them.  Otherwise, they wouldn’t have persisted for as long as they have or be found in as many people as they do.  The only thing that proponents of these ideas, that of Sins of the Father, got write is that extraordinary traits and abilities are hereditary.  Like any other genetic feature, extraordinary traits and abilities have the potential of being passed down from one generation to another.

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Posted by on April 15, 2013 in Xerek Files


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Xerek Files: Entry Number Sixteen – [Origin Myth: Demons]

With our current understanding of science, it can be seen as beginning during the time of the Renaissance, a time period that lasted from the 14th to 17th centuries.  From there, it has helped to explain the world around us and how it works.  It has even explained the origin of not only human beings, but of the universe itself.  But before the creation of this tool, humanity had to rely upon myths, legends, superstition, and the supernatural to help explain the world around them.  And though science has made great progress over the past few hundred years, there are those who still rely upon pre-scientific ideas and concepts to help explain the world around them.  A part of this is the belief that events and situations of the world aren’t of a natural origin.  There are those who believe that supernatural forces are in play in regards to events of daily life.  This can be seen in an attitude held by some in regards to the origin of extraordinary traits and abilities.

Among those who believe in the supernatural explanation for extraordinary traits and abilities, there are those who believe that they are of demonic origin.  They believe that some kind of evil force is connected to extraordinary traits and abilities, and as a result, those who possess them are, or are somehow connected to, evil.  And depending upon who you talk to, you will get a different answer on exactly how they are connected with this evil, but they can be broken down into four broad, loosely defined categories.  These categories are 1) demons themselves, 2) mediums for demons, 3) made a deal with a demon, or 4) some kind of combination or hybridization of the other three categories.  As a result of this, subscribers to this belief system see those who possess extraordinary traits and abilities as being unnatural at the least and unholy abominations at the worst.

But what constitutes a demon isn’t a clear cut concept.  Different religions and sects have varying perspectives on the matter, depending upon their scripture and outlook on the supernatural.  And what constitutes a demon to some is considered to be an angel by others.  One such example of this can be found in the Old Testament, particularly the book of Exodus with the slaying of the first born of Egypt.  For the Israelites, the supernatural beings responsible for the slaying were angels for they were killing their enemies.  But for the Egyptians, the supernatural beings were demons out to destroy them.  It’s all about perspective.  The supernatural beings in play remain the same with the same objectives, but how humanity perceives them varies, depending upon whose side the supernatural beings take.

And the use of the word demon can just be used as a means of attacking another.  With the culture that exists in the West, particularly in the United States, demons are something that needs to be feared and attacked for they represent a threat to the safety and security of not only individual people, but society as a whole.  But such a mindset stems out of that particular individual or groups sense of fear and insecurity on the matter.  They feel threatened by those with extraordinary traits and abilities and seek some way to explain or rationalize their fear.  This gives them some semblance of control over the situation, and oddly enough, peace of mind.  If people can identify what they are afraid of, or what scares them, it allows them to identify what the threat is and allows them a means of dealing with that fear and the threat that stems from it.

However, at the end of the day, extraordinary traits and abilities are not supernatural in nature or are otherwise connected with anything beyond the physical, natural realm.  They are genetic in origin and nothing more than a genetic expression of a particular person’s genetic code.  No further explanation is needed beyond that fact.  And there is nothing malevolent about extraordinary traits and abilities in and of themselves.  It’s the intension of the individual using them that needs to be judged accompanied by the outcome of the use of such traits and abilities.

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Posted by on April 8, 2013 in Xerek Files


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Xerek Files: Entry Number Fifteen – [Mutant Cure]

With the existence of extraordinary traits and abilities, attitudes directed toward them are quite mixed.  While some see extraordinary traits and abilities as a good thing or as a positive force, there are others who see them in a negative light, resulting in them wanting to see them be eliminated or otherwise removed from the population.  With those who want to see the removal of extraordinary traits and abilities from the population, some take the extreme view of total extermination of these individuals while others are willing to take a more moderate view of the situation where they are willing to see these individuals continue to live as long as they are divorced from their extraordinary traits and abilities.  These latter individuals didn’t arise until relatively recently with the emergence of genetics and its understanding by the broader population.  On top of this, with the appearance of gene therapy, it helped these individuals come to the conclusion that extraordinary traits and abilities can be suppressed or otherwise eliminated from those who possess them.  As a result, it led some to believe that a cure can be created and developed in order to treat this “condition.”

Once the idea of a mutant cure was developed, it managed to propagate to those who are willing to listen and has even begun to become a fixture within mainstream society.  With the initial idea behind the “mutant cure,” if a person with extraordinary traits and abilities received this supposed cure, it would completely remove any trace of the trait or ability, much like antibiotics would against a bacterial infection.  But as time went by, some believe that for this “cure” to work, it needs to be a course of treatments performed over a period of time before the traits and abilities are completely removed.  Others believe that only a single treatment is necessary in order to treat the condition.  But regardless of what camp that a person subscribes to, proponents of this idea believe that extraordinary traits and abilities are connected, and thus stem from, a single gene.  Thus, the cure needs to target that particular gene in order to remove extraordinary traits and abilities from the population.

However, what these people fail to realize is that there is no single gene responsible for the formation of extraordinary traits and abilities.  Like most other traits and characteristics found in your average person, regardless of if these traits and characteristics are extraordinary or not, is that they are connected to a number of different genes, allowing them to manifest themselves.  And there is no cure for genetic conditions, only treatments.  So if this mutant cure actually existed, it would actually be more of gene suppression than that of an actual cure.

And with the removal of extraordinary traits and abilities, it extends beyond individuals who don’t possess extraordinary traits and abilities.  This idea has spread to those who actually possess extraordinary traits and abilities and wish to have them removed.  And the reasons behind holding this idea of “curing” extraordinary traits and abilities can vary wildly.  Some believe that extraordinary traits and abilities are a curse while others truly think that they are a disease.  Some want to be able to fit in with their peers while others just want them gone with no expressed or clearly thought out reasons or explanations.  These individuals just want the extraordinary traits and abilities gone.

And supporters of the mutant cure truly believe that extraordinary traits and abilities are a disease or other type of infection that needs to be treated in order for the individual to survive.  On top of this, there are those who view extraordinary traits and abilities as a pandemic, making them a public health crisis that needs to be treated immediately, not unlike the Spanish Flu in 1918 or the public’s perception surrounding the bubonic plague.  There are even some who view those with extraordinary traits and abilities as having something similar to that of HIV/AIDS; a despised minority that deserves to be infected.  But unlike those who are infected with HIV/AIDS who die because of the disease, these individuals believe that proactive steps need to be taken in order for the situation to be resolved.  That’s why they support the idea behind the mutant cure.  And through this cure, it can suppress or otherwise eliminate extraordinary traits and abilities, much like a viral or bacterial infection.

But even with the idea surrounding a mutant cure, there are anti-mutant individuals who see the only acceptable solution to the situation is the elimination of those who possess extraordinary traits and abilities.  This is because, even if these individuals are “cured” of their extraordinary traits and abilities, their “condition” can still be passed on to the next generation.  That’s why such individuals can’t get behind the idea of a “cure” and resort to violent ends to achieve their objective.  However, not every anti-mutant individual can support this idea of genocide for they have an aversion to the idea of killing those who possess extraordinary traits and abilities for some philosophical reason but still want to see extraordinary traits and abilities eliminated.  As a result, they see the mutant cure as an acceptable alternative to the situation.

However, despite all of their claims, the idea of a mutant cure and the reasoning behind it is an absurd one.  First, as stated earlier, there is no single gene that is responsible for the formation and expression of extraordinary traits and abilities.  There are multiple genes involved with their expression.  Second, the majority of known extraordinary traits and abilities are dependent upon already existing traits and characteristics that are found within humanity.  As a result, if one was going to affect an extraordinary trait or ability, they cannot help but affect the trait or characteristic which it is based upon.  One such example surrounds extraordinary sight.  If someone tries to remove that particular trait connected with extraordinary sight, they cannot help but affect the eye itself as well as affecting its continued function or development.

In addition to this, it’s hard to determine if someone actually possesses an extraordinary trait or ability.  Most of them are built upon already existing traits and characteristics found within humanity, making it difficult to create a clear demarcation line between an extraordinary trait or ability and a regular trait or ability.  The individual who possesses an extraordinary trait or ability can also be unaware of the fact that they possess an extraordinary trait or ability.  It can be seen as being similar in nature to synesthesia; the person who possesses the extraordinary trait or ability can perceive it as being perfectly natural and think that this is how everyone else perceives and experiences the world around them.

Though modern culture likes to exaggerate extraordinary traits and abilities, in reality, they fall far short of this expectation.  So there is the possibility that someone can possess an extraordinary trait or ability without even knowing it.  And besides, in regards to the whole idea of curing extraordinary traits and abilities, as stated before, it is an absurd concept because there is nothing to be cured.  This is because extraordinary traits and abilities are a fundamental characteristic of that particular person.  It can be seen as trying to cure someone of having blue eyes or dark skin.  It is a ridiculous idea and it is wrong to think otherwise.

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Posted by on April 1, 2013 in Xerek Files


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